But alas.
To be humbly candid, I have been spending the last 8 months trying to figure this thing out - this thing they call 'motherhood'. And that other little thing they call 'career'.
I apologise. Unreservedly, to the gods of blogspot, the 8 people who read this (when they have absolutely nowhere else to surf online) and to Rosli, my brudder-blogspot creator-marketing person.
Back to this whole "I am Woman, so multi-tasking is my middle name" thing, I cannot tell you how many times I've cursed under my breath about what a load of ... it must be, coz I was struggling like I've never struggled before.
I must be a slow learner.
In these 8 months, I've come to realise that like all things in life, all it takes is time. Developing patience takes time. Now, doesn't that sound funny?
I'm not known for my patience but for this stage of my life, there was no way I could wing it, fake it or bamboozle my way out of it. 8 months just took well, 8 months.
That's how it took for me to find my groove again. It took me that long to realise I could not be clocking 100km each day shuttling baby to my mum's place, head to work, reverse the order at the end of the day, do this 5 times a week, do laundry, run errands, clean the house, eat 3 meals a day, have 7 hours of sleep, have time for husband, have time to myself, bring work home, have friends, write more books, get back to work on TV, lose pregnancy weight, host concerts, read newspapers like normal people do, and expect it all happen like clock-work... all because I forgot one thing.
Babies live life on their own schedule, and boy, was I upset. The control freak in me freaked and only now I realise, if only I surrendered sooner to this new 'normal' (where nothing is 'normal'), I would have been able to find my groove a lot sooner.
Ah well. Better late than never. Just surrender. :)
P/S - My little Sarah's the joy of my life. She's also the new boss. And she knows it. :)
PP/S - Next post will be on my book, promise.
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